THE DEVELOPMENT OF A CHANNELER or I DIDN'T ASK FOR THIS
I didn't know I had the ability to perceive that people were about to die but discovered it by accident. At the place where I worked, the supervisor in charge of the department was very nice. Mr. X was actually the nicest guy to me of all the people at that job. He was an older fellow and had some children my age that were attending the same university as me. Thus, he was always initiating friendly conversations about my college studies and future plans.
As the summer progressed, I suddenly found myself being uncomfortable around Mr. X. There was no reason for it. He was actually the only person at that entire job that was nice to me and he was a great guy. However, it reached the point where I found myself avoiding him. This was illogical to me but I couldn't help myself. However, I didn't have to avoid him for too many days.
One afternoon, another employee stopped in and was making polite conversation. In the course of the conversation he said, "Well, Mr. X is no longer with us." I was surprised and asked if he'd quit. I was told no, that the previous night, Mr. X had died of a heart attack at his home.
I was taken aback but the implications of this became immediately apparent. The reason this very nice guy was making me uncomfortable related to my perception of his impending death. I pondered this situation and decided that it was a handy ability to have. At least, you wouldn't be caught by surprise when a relative died. Thus, I was not concerned about the heart problems that my father developed about the same time because I KNEW he was not going to die immediately. And, it was true. He survived that series of heart attacks and lived for another 19 years.
This ability has remained with me since the time I discovered I could do it. As with most things in my life, I didn't view it as anything special.
The summer ended, my father got out of the hospital and I went back to college. However, something was very different. My entire curriculum choice became a hopeless nightmare. I discovered that my career choice was derailed. I became depressed. That was a rough school term for me and I was glad when it was over. However, you have to pre-register for the next term and I had signed up for courses that had once been my goal and decided that I would use the Christmas break to figure things out.
Unfortunately, my mind was a blank and strangely enough, I couldn't see an alternative. I knew I had to make a change but I didn't know what it needed to be. But several days before it was time to go back to school, an unusual thing happened.
I woke up feeling out of sorts. I had a fever but there were no other symptoms. I didn't think too much of it and took some aspirin. However, it didn't do any good and by that afternoon my fever had escalated. By the next day, it was around 105 degrees. I never felt so rotten in my life. My head was pounding with my heart beat. The aspirin did very little to reduce the fever. By the late afternoon, the fever continued in the 105 to 107 degree range. The local doctor was called and he prescribed some medication that was picked up from the hospital that evening. When I got it, I simply popped the large pill in my mouth and swallowed it. I couldn't taste anything. A few hours later, the fever began to go down but it wasn't until the next day that I could taste the medicine I had been taking; penicillin. It tasted awful.
In that two days, I had lost about 20 pounds and was a physical wreck. Returning to school was out of the question as I could barely walk, much less drive 300 miles back to the university. So by some strange force, as I say I never had ANY symptoms other than a seriously high fever, I was prevented from returning to college. This forced vacation led to an aspect of myself I had never known.
TO BE CONTINUED